rosetintedeyes7

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124 today. woke up in the middle of the night all dizzy and sick. i was 123. had a special k bar. then i was 124.

today:

2 green teas (0 cals)
water (0 cals)
gold fish (purged)
2 hot dogs (purged)
Spaghetti (purged)
1/2 cup of corn (40 cals)

worked out like pretty much all night.  I know i kept some of the cals from the binge/purge session, so im figuring i came in under 100 cals.  Goal: 10 lbs before 12/9.  

thinking thin....

did alright today but i ended up eating more than i wanted to for dinner.  
Today:

2 green teas (0)
Water 1L (0)
Slice of peperroni pizza (330) :-O

I don't know why i at that bloody pizza.  i would have been fine without it and would have been so much happier tomorrow when i saw the results.  I'm starting trim spa again today too.  I've been really happy with the results from it in the past and now pairing it with the fasting should prove quite promising so we'll see.

My man comes back from over-seas on Dec 9th and I plan to be 118 by then. thats 10lbs in 2 weeks.  I think i can do that.  I've got to do that.  I just hope he doesnt freak out-he can be pretty bad when it comes to my weight losses. he freaks out over every pound!  I think im going to switch to the 2468 after this fast is over tomorrow, that way i can reintroduce food to my system before thursday. god i'm dreading thanksgiving.

does anyone else ever feel like you have no friends at all? like, even the "friends" you try to convince yourself you have, are constantly going out without so much as calling you.  Friday night and i'm sitting at home watching tv and surfing proana sites. again. this is getting really old.  sometimes i just want out...not like anyone would be that upset about it anyway.

8 pm on day one of three day fast.

today:
BLACK COFFEE. (0)
TWO GREEN TEAS (10)
15 GOLDFISH CRACKERS (40ish)

and the worst part? got on the scale.  ive actually GAINED 3lbs!!! it better be because im bloated.  i dont know what else to do.  uuuuurgh!